Exhausted And Unhappy

During the past few days, my life seems so messed up. It`s as if it`s in a state where it shouldn`t be. I am so exhausted with how things were poorly done in my life. I`m so fed up with the inconsistency of the beautiful things I should be having in life. Everything`s so complicated and confusing that often, I wonder if I`ll ever be even through such horrible times. I am so disgusted with the evil things around me yet I can`t even be as righteous as I can and ought to be. Everything`s tangled up, it`s as if I`m in the middle of a braided war between myself and situations. I often want to be isolated because that way, I`m away from human things. I just want to be whole and new. God, please help me. I am disoriented and melancholy. I am poor in your eyes. Please heal me, Lord. Thank you very much.

- Kathryn

Feeling Renewed

My inner self longs for peace, love, serenity and wholesomeness. This stubborn self isn`t happy being disobedient. How amazingly wonderful it is if only I have high self-control. With forgiveness, I am truly pleased with such wonderful grace for I do not deserve such omnipotent love.

Earlier, after I took a bath, I feel renewed. It`s as if all the mistakes in the past have assumingly been washed away physically. With the love from above, I was truly at peace knowing that someone is very faithful to me.

A few days ago, I originally intended to buy a planner but ended up getting a journal.

So far, it`s a great notebook to carry around. Somehow, I feel very inspired when I acquired this journal. It`s as if I was given more opportunities to let my thoughts flow through my hands.

It has been a journey full of ups and downs but thankfully I still have the love and inspiration to keep on appreciating the things that was provided for me. Life isn`t unfair, because it`s how one makes the most of it through choice. Decisions that can either break or make you. I have learned that in every little thing that I do, bigger consequences lie in wait. With this, cautious thinking, acting and speaking must be taken into great consideration.

I hope everybody will have a positive mindset this week. Have a beautiful day.

Thank you for reading.

- Kathryn